Chelsea Cutler - I dont feel alive

^E Skin and b^B/D#ones, ^C#m stomach aches ^A Lucid dreams, hold my breath when I'm wide awake ^E Connectic^B/D#ut, ^C#m dissociate ^A Maybe I should buy a house in a town upstate

^F#mIf I could, I'd w^Bake myself up wh^Een I ^B/D#am someb^C#mody th^Bat I'm^A proud of

^E I'm getting undr^B/D#essed for m^C#my lover And praying she don't h^Aate all my skin like I do ^E I'm reading books ^B/D#and drinking c^C#moffee Stepping on a sc^Aale I keep in the bathroom The water goes downh^Eill, and still ^B/D# I sw^C#mim against the current with two ^Aarms that cannot fly And I don't feel al^Eive ^{B/D# C#m} No, I don't feel al^Aive

^E Teleh^B/D#ealth,^C#m TV episodes ^A Swallow seeds, but the fruit never seems to grow ^E Valid^B/D#atе, ^C#m what I know ^A What I believe in and еverywhere I wanna go

^F#mIf I could, I'd w^Bake myself up wh^Een I ^B/D#am someb^C#mody th^Bat I'm^A proud of

^E I’m paying three d^B/D#ifferent ps^C#mychologists Trying to rem^Aember who I told what story to ^E I’m writing feel^B/D#ings in a j^C#mournal Cuz' that’s what people who h^Aave their shit together seem to do The water goes downh^Eill, and still ^B/D# I sw^C#mim against the current with two ^Aarms that cannot fly And I don't feel al^Eive ^{B/D# C#m} No, I don't feel al^Aive

^EI keep co^B/D#ming ^C#mup for air and ^Aending up with water in my ^EI keep co^B/D#ming ^C#mup for air and ^Aending up with water in my lungs

^E I’m learning how t^B/D#o set my b^C#moundaries How to have comp^Aassion for myself and for my mind ^E I’m turning off m^B/D#y fucking c^C#mell phone And trying to have h^Aonest conversations in real life The water goes downh^Eill, and still ^B/D# I sw^C#mim against the current with two ^Aarms that cannot fly And I don't feel al^Eive ^{B/D# C#m} No, I don't feel al^Aive

^EI keep co^B/D#ming ^C#mup for air and ^Aending up with water in my ^EI keep co^B/D#ming ^C#mup for air and ^Aending up with water in my ^EI keep co^B/D#ming ^C#mup for air and ^Aending up with water in my ^EI keep co^B/D#ming ^C#mup for air and ^Aending up with water in my lungs